There's gold ahead, there's golden dreams.

I like how this is the third day in a row I'm blogging....anyway... Hello all, So, you ever wish there was an un-send button with emails? I sure do. That'd be nice. I've spent literally all day thinking about my conversation with Jayne...

There's a raging sea, right in front of me.

Hello all, Wow, today was...interesting to say the least. I felt like this was the service I needed to be at the most. I feel like it's spoken to me the most so far. I almost cried at the end. Thank God for long hair, I was able to hide my face...

Hey stranger, I want ya to catch me like a cold

Hello all, So, this week was hell. I'm so glad that it's basically over. I cried most of the week, but that's nothing new. Mom's 99.9% sure I'm depressed. Duh, obviously. Wouldn't surprise me if I was. Wouldn't be the first time. I actually got out...

Life SUCKS

Hello all, Well, today sucks. I've cried way  too much, we all have. I've never really spoken of my pets in the past, but they're part of the family. We've spoiled them so much, we've always said they don't even know they're dogs. Brandy's our old...

There's too many sunsets, I haven't seen

  Hello all, Sooooo I guess I'm doing better than I have been. Fighting the eating disorder is still a work in progress. As I mentioned, I did finally reach my goal weight. I broke down and checked it this morning while I was getting ready for...

I love how outspoken I've become

Hello all, So, tonight (well, Wednesday night) I went to a meeting with my mom. As I'm sure everyone is aware, school districts across the country are having to make significant budget cuts. One of many, is in Special Education. Our district is no...

Miserable At Best

Hello all, I'm so fucking sick of crying.  I'm so sick of fighting the urge to starve myself. I'm sick of trying NOT to purge after I eat. Three things I've done today.I'm tired of finding myself lying in my bathroom floor, curled up in a ball,...

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired

Hello all,  I feel like I've been blogging a lot here lately. Seems like I'm writing every couple of days (that's what it feels like at least). Maybe it's what's keeping me from having a complete and total meltdown, that....and Jayne. Speaking...

Mona Lisa, I'd pay to see you frown

Hello all, Got back home from Fort Worth at 8 or 9 last night. I had a blast at the Teen Court competition! We left here at like, 3:30 Friday afternoon. When we got there, we went to the Macaroni Grill. My eating hasn't been the best with all this...