Changes Suck

It's been like a month since my last post. Wow.  Last Sunday during first service I was working in the infant room in the nursery. In the nursing mother's lounge we have speakers so if a mom has to leave during service to nurse they can still hear...

Relapse and Recovery (and other stuff too)

Ever since I found out I wouldn't be able to stay with Ashley and the boys (as their nanny, that is), my eating habits have gone to hell in a handbasket. And they went fast. The scary thing is I didn't even realize it was happening. I guess I had...

Best night of my life

Skip down to the third paragraph if you would prefer to start reading the events that really kicked off the best night of my life, the first couple of paragraphs are really just backstory, skim over them just for the sake of knowing who's who. Last...

What a week. Seriously.

Spring Break was this week which meant I got to spend all day with Timothy and Benjamin every day this week. It was wonderful getting to hang out with my BB again, I've missed him! I took my camera to work with me every day, per Benjamin's request...

Decision = Made.

So if you've read my past few posts then you know I've been having a seriously hard time dealing with this whole pre-school/work thing. While I was slowly coming to terms with it (read: accepting the fact that it was really going to happen), I was...

"You move through my body like an ocean, yeah."

This is probably going to be a hella long post since the site was down and a lot has transpired since my last post regarding work. Sorry, y'all.    I swear if I come any closer to giving Marilyn a heart-attack she might actually kill me.  ...

Cue the panic attacks

Why do shitty things tend to come in twos or threes?  Alright so I already discussed Friday the 14th, so that's out of the way. We know how crappy that day ended. Saturday I at least expected a phone call from my sister saying she absolutely...

"You, and You alone, awake my soul"

All I feel like doing is staying in bed for a week...or a month...curled up in a ball. Under the covers. In a dark, quiet, room. Unfortunately (or perhaps, fortunately?) for me school, work, and internships don't allow that soooo...that's not going to...

Collarbones and Conversation

I wanted to mention some of this in my last post, but my last post seemed heavy enough on it's own. Plus, none of this really had anything to do with what I was discussing sooo, yeah. New post it is.  Last week I noticed it appears my collarbones...

"End of the night, it's going down."

"Ask and it will be given to you, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened to you." This verse from the book of Matthew is one that I, someone who's a newer Believer, have had numerous issues with in the past. I had come to the...

"It ain't what you say, it's what you do"

Holy shit, y'all. (Great way to start a post, eh?) Ashley and Marilyn totally blew my mind today and here I am, 13 hours after the fact, still completely speechless about it. Today is the only day I work this week because of the holiday so I took...

"The fire beneath my feet is burning bright"

I had this post almost completely written out early this morning and then my iPad said, "Oh hey, you know what would be fun? If I just randomly refreshed the page for no apparent reason," and so I lost it all. So pissed. I didn't work much this...

"You are better than your worst day"

I love when I feel like I'm starting to slip back into a depression and into the hands of my eating disorder God throws something in my path to remind me how good things can be, how far I've come. Thursday night was the last college group of the...

"A drop in the ocean, a change in the weather"

Last Thursday I presented a speech in my Speech class with a partner. We had to draw for times and, as luck would have it, we drew the first slot on the first day of presentations. Fuck. So we were scared out of our minds. Our topic was Autism; was it...

"Love hurts, and your lies, they cut deep."

I know I said I was cutting down on the nanny posts here, but no one really reads this so screw it. Feel free to skip down to the end of this post for non-nanny updates. So. I almost gave Marilyn a heart-attack today, totally unintentional and I...