"Let the rain fall down"

Hello all, I wrote an essay in English today and I felt like sharing it with all of you, as well as updating you on everything! Enjoy: It was a few weeks before the start of my Junior year. The weather was miserably hot, typical Texas weather. To...

"love just is"

Hello all!  So, this morning Daniel and I talked before school started. I found out he DOES feel the same way about me that I feel about him. He said he loves me, and that I was the best thing that ever happened to him. So, things are totally...

love one another

hello all! So, Daniel asked me out today! And I'm so incredibly happy. I think we're going to see a movie Friday night and I can't wait. My eating has stablized for now. My choir teacher cracks me up beyond belief. She's so motherly when it come to her...

When the top of the world falls on you

Hello all! I feel like things are looking up a bit. Lately I've been able to look in the mirror and NOT tell myself I'm fat. There is this guy I'm totally head over heels for. He has great manners, he's funny, sweet and cute. But you know what the best...

which came first, music or the misery?

Hello all!So my life, as usual has been hectic. I went to the doctor and got a 5 minute lecture about how under weight I am. Thanks dr.moron, because having a flippin' eating disorder won't cause that. My doctor is. An. Idiot. I know it, and my mom...

face down in the dirt she says this doesnt hurt

Hello there,  So things aren't so great. My eating disorder has unfortunatly flared up again. As always, I can't look in the mirror without basically telling myself how fat I am. When the eating disorder flares up again, I can't help but look at one...

are you kidding me?

Hello all. So, I went to the dr today, and my iron is way up! However, the light-headedness, dizzy, etc it still going on. And, I am going to have to carry a blood glucose meter with me. No, I'm not diabetic, but it will tell me if I'm hypo-glusemic....

Nobody knows where they might end up

Once again, I am sad to inform everyone that things arent great. Let's see, my seizures are coming back due to my high stress level, yup, its getting that bad. Today, I didn't even make it to the end of second period. I went home and went back to...

"do you understand just how much I feel for you?

So yesterday didnt go great. Ha, thats the under statement of the year. IT WENT HORRIBLY. I haven't been able to focus in class. I have tons of make-up work. Including some essay for English, and its just so, ugh I can't even say. I almost didnt eat...

Yes ive been broken hearted

hey there! So, the last transfusion didn't go great. I had TWO veins blow out, and it hurt, bad. And my arm was killing me today. But moving on. So, I accidently let it slip to my mom that my best friend was screwing her boyfriend. But, she said she...

"all my life ive been driven by perfection"

hello there! So, Friday I went and got my transfusion. It wasn't that bad honestly. I hardly felt the needle. But I did get really light headed when they began pumping the benodryl into the IV. Apparently it helps clean out your veins before they give...

Baby its all or nothing now

hey all. So, today marks the two year anniversary of something. My friend's death. Her name was Brittani and she was 15. She died in a plane crash with her WHOLE FAMILY aboard their private plane. Including her 6 month old baby sister Kendall. I miss...

"so many things I shouldn't be saying now"

Hello all!!!!  So, last night I talked to my very best friend/2nd mom Blondie. And I asked her that if and when I tell my mom about my eating disorder, would she be there. And she IMMEDIATLY said yes! And then she was like, "How about tomorrow at...

these words are my own

Hello all!  So, the boy I'm totally head over heels for, just wants to be friends. See, he used to date one of my very best friends. But then they broke up over somethings that I'm not going to mention. I've had a crush on him since the day we met....

friends, their my addiction.

Hello all! So, my best friend and I got into a huge fight. That had to do with some of the things that I mentioned in my last blog. She sleeps with her boyfriend. Which I don't agree with. I have a purity ring myself. For you that are not familiar...

If u wanna ride, just name ur price.

  Hey everyone! So a lot happened today. Last night, I did some things that made one of my best friends furious, I have an excuse that is true, but i am not going to bother her with it. She is worth more than that. This particular friend has...

ugh

hello all! sorry I haven't posted in awhile. Things here have been pretty crazy. So, on top of my seizures (which are now under control yeah!!!), turns out I'm HIGHLY anemic. That explains the light-headedness, tired all the time, hot and cold spells,...

Why all of this?

Hello Everybody. So, I guess things are looking up a little bit. I started having seizures a few months ago. Almost passed out in Choir awhile back. I've never passed out before. Not only did it completely freak out my Choir teacher, it scared the hell...

this is me, take it or leave it

This is my first blog, whether or not it's good, is up to you. There's so much that's happened to me. I have Autism. Asperger's syndrome to be exact. My whole life I've heard from people, "oh, you are so lucky. God made a special Plan for you. God gave...